I don't get it, what's up with boys?
Why pretend to like someone if you don't? Why pretend to dislike someone if you don't?
Why change your mind all of a sudden. Why act like a complete asshole?
Screw them!
08 november 2009
03 november 2009
PARIS
Today I probably lost 300 euros even though everybody (especially Petter) told me that it was a foolish thing to spend them at the beginning. Of well, LIFE!
Petter tells me I'm attracted to misery but I prefer to see it like a actually have faith in mankind!
Soit I loose 300 euros soit I have a fabulous apartment in Paris! On verra.
Petter tells me I'm attracted to misery but I prefer to see it like a actually have faith in mankind!
Soit I loose 300 euros soit I have a fabulous apartment in Paris! On verra.
27 oktober 2009
Le rêve
Today I had my first dream in french! Or well, in kinda' french..I was moving to Paris to live in a family where I of course fell in love with the son. He just happened to know swedish because his grandma ou quelue chose comme ca was swedish. When he spoke to me in french I didn't seem to understand so unfortunately we stuck to swedish.
Pretty soon we went in to his bedroom where we kissed. But when I took of my t-shirt, his jewish mother came in, totally terrified at the fact that a girl was going to be half-naked in her house. She screamed and chased us around the yard. I think we escaped and suddenly we were on a tiny boat, in the middle of a waterfall where the water seemed to disappear more and more as the fall got deeper and deeper. Scary thing.
So, that's supposed to mean something or what?
Pretty soon we went in to his bedroom where we kissed. But when I took of my t-shirt, his jewish mother came in, totally terrified at the fact that a girl was going to be half-naked in her house. She screamed and chased us around the yard. I think we escaped and suddenly we were on a tiny boat, in the middle of a waterfall where the water seemed to disappear more and more as the fall got deeper and deeper. Scary thing.
So, that's supposed to mean something or what?
13 oktober 2009
FAILURE
During the last days, no less then three guys have stepped up asking: "WHY ARE YOU STILL SINGLE??" Pointing out what a failure I am. And they are so right!
I don't want to tell them that it's because I'm a DISGUSTING PERSON WHO NOBODY WOULD WANT so I'm smiling, saying oh well...."life is hard", as they're touching my most sensitive spot whispering "FAILURE" in my ear.
I don't want to tell them that it's because I'm a DISGUSTING PERSON WHO NOBODY WOULD WANT so I'm smiling, saying oh well...."life is hard", as they're touching my most sensitive spot whispering "FAILURE" in my ear.
08 oktober 2009
M-I-S-E-R-Y
Another day in semi-unemployment. I'm so not looking forward to my next salary, I mean what will it be???? 3.000 sek?? C'est au-dessous de moi!!!! = So below my dignity. I mean to stand all the horrible customers I should at least be paid twice the sum!!
Oh well, maybe the awful thing really is that I'm so wasting my free time. I'm constantly bored, and like play farmville even though I don't really like it anymore! The rest of time I try to read Ensemble c'est tout getting crushed over how many words I have to look up the definition for. And en plus, Iäve forbidden myself to shop, so I can't even buy myself happiness!! (Oh tomorrow I'm gonna buy a new pair of jeans-leggings but that's beside the point.) The only thing I really enjoy is the evenings when I'm chatting with my french friends. Though it isn't splendid for my self-esteem as I'm always feeling stupid for never ever getting fluent in french!
I guess this is more a ..transition waiting for Paris. But actually I'm afraid of screwing up that as well due to things I don't seem to be able to control, no matter how hard I try. That's misery or what????
Now I guess I'm gonna get back to my boring life, maybe clean the bathroom (which probably is not gonna happen). Things that really should be done is going for a walk listening to French songs in my ipod, and reading some French literature. That doesn't seem unmanageable but you never know.
M-I-S-E-R-Y!
Oh well, maybe the awful thing really is that I'm so wasting my free time. I'm constantly bored, and like play farmville even though I don't really like it anymore! The rest of time I try to read Ensemble c'est tout getting crushed over how many words I have to look up the definition for. And en plus, Iäve forbidden myself to shop, so I can't even buy myself happiness!! (Oh tomorrow I'm gonna buy a new pair of jeans-leggings but that's beside the point.) The only thing I really enjoy is the evenings when I'm chatting with my french friends. Though it isn't splendid for my self-esteem as I'm always feeling stupid for never ever getting fluent in french!
I guess this is more a ..transition waiting for Paris. But actually I'm afraid of screwing up that as well due to things I don't seem to be able to control, no matter how hard I try. That's misery or what????
Now I guess I'm gonna get back to my boring life, maybe clean the bathroom (which probably is not gonna happen). Things that really should be done is going for a walk listening to French songs in my ipod, and reading some French literature. That doesn't seem unmanageable but you never know.
M-I-S-E-R-Y!
05 oktober 2009
List
Things to get done tomorrow:
1. Go for a walk
2. Tidy my room
3. Read "Ensemble c'est tout"
4. Buy a farmhouse in Farmville
5. Send my computer to the company I bought it from to get it fixed!! (but I dont want to leave iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit)
Guess that was it. Wouldn't I be a failure if I can't even accomplish those few things?? Well, on verra demain.
1. Go for a walk
2. Tidy my room
3. Read "Ensemble c'est tout"
4. Buy a farmhouse in Farmville
5. Send my computer to the company I bought it from to get it fixed!! (but I dont want to leave iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit)
Guess that was it. Wouldn't I be a failure if I can't even accomplish those few things?? Well, on verra demain.
04 oktober 2009
LIFE
Week-end over, and in fact, this one has been kind of crappy. Somehow, I don't enjoy loneliness as much as I used to, et en plus, watching series isn't that exciting anymore. At least I've been reading some french and chatted with a french guy. Oh, freeeench<3
Stupid like always, I also wrote a message on facebook to a french girl who is member of a group for LTU-students, and who I think I might have seen at forex. Haha, lol I'm such a stalker. She hasn't answered me yet but I really hope she will. If not, I'll be embarrassed.
Well, rien d'autre has happened, I worked some hours yesterday and all I got was two english-speaking customers. Vacation over = no more tourists. I hate that, just have to hope for the french LTU-students to come, but I haven't had much luck so far:/
I guess I have nothing more to say- I'm feeling kind of bitter and rancourous (gotta love the word) at the moment. So maybe I should stick to solitude as I'm likely to be a bitch to people....*LIFE*.
Ben, I'm still dreaming of good times ahead and hoping for everything to be wonderful in Paris - la ville d'amour. If not, I'm seriously gonna gonna consider laying in bed for the next few years.
Nan, but life is really unfair, je ne mérite pas ca!!!!!!!!!
Stupid like always, I also wrote a message on facebook to a french girl who is member of a group for LTU-students, and who I think I might have seen at forex. Haha, lol I'm such a stalker. She hasn't answered me yet but I really hope she will. If not, I'll be embarrassed.
Well, rien d'autre has happened, I worked some hours yesterday and all I got was two english-speaking customers. Vacation over = no more tourists. I hate that, just have to hope for the french LTU-students to come, but I haven't had much luck so far:/
I guess I have nothing more to say- I'm feeling kind of bitter and rancourous (gotta love the word) at the moment. So maybe I should stick to solitude as I'm likely to be a bitch to people....*LIFE*.
Ben, I'm still dreaming of good times ahead and hoping for everything to be wonderful in Paris - la ville d'amour. If not, I'm seriously gonna gonna consider laying in bed for the next few years.
Nan, but life is really unfair, je ne mérite pas ca!!!!!!!!!
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